Well, technically it would be the experiences the children have had too.
I’m wondering myself, just how does one go about testifying when you do not have an attorney? I can’t ask myself questions, so what do I do??
At this point, I have accepted that I cannot win this custody case. I’ve messed up too badly myself, and I will not be able to afford an attorney, and because I was not able to get the court order for the evaluation, I probably cannot get that done on time, either, since these people need time to schedule these appointments. I’m not even really all that worried about having an evaluation done now that I know what they are all about. The information in my files where Im going is not bad, but I have accepted it: I have lost my children.
With that in mind, knowing that I have lost, what can I do about getting this judge to realize that he also needs mental health counseling? The man has a wild, violent temper, is extremely manipulative with the kids themselves and has been diagnosed with pretty severe problems but won’t stay on medication. This judge told me that she would force him to have an evaluation done himself if I could show her something convincing her that he needs one.
I played this tape for an attorney a few months ago, when I was still kicking and screaming, trying to hang on, and this is what I was told: “If you play that tape, you run the risk of the judge deciding that neither of you is capable of caring for your children.” She was telling me NOT to use it, because it’s so bad, that bad. “If you make each other look irredeemably bad, the judge may put the children into foster care.” THAT is what I was told. I don’t want that to happen, but he does have family members who would take the kids until he could show them he had done something about his own temper.
I guess I’m just prepared to lose even my parental rights. I won’t be able to comply in time with the order for the evaluation. Bam, right there, very bad. But I want these children protected. I want them in a safe place, where there isn’t such a good possibility of someone’s irritability turning into a gigantic, dangerous fit. Somebody could get hurt.
And that is why I MUST get this tape into evidence. This judge needs to know what this man is like when he loses control.